Dear friends,45Please respect copyright.PENANAhcoggBD2ca
I want to be angry. I want to be angry so so bad, but I can't. I can't show you how mad I am because I know that you'll hate yourself for it. I already watch you destroy yourself every day more and more for the littlest things like interrupting someone.45Please respect copyright.PENANAiSrok3fd7g
It hurts to see you that way. It hurts because I know I can't do anything. I'm powerless, useless, against your hatred. Your hatred swallows you whole. But that's not enough for it. It searches and searches and searches to swallow more people. The people you love, the people you hate. Until there's no love left.45Please respect copyright.PENANA62SzE0Cjsb
And I know you're hurting. I know that you're struggling and going through your own things, and I know those things are so hard to deal with on your own, and sure it explains why you do the things you do but it doesn't mean it hurts any less. I know you didn't mean to hurt me. I know it was an accident and I've seen how kind and lovely you are as a person. But deep down I want to scream. I want to kick and shout and hurl something at you. I wanna cry and tell you how you made me feel. But I won't, because I'm afraid. Afraid of what you'll do.45Please respect copyright.PENANA5ojG7P2OKF
The words you say, to me and yourself. It hurts to watch you destroy yourself. It hurts to watch you destroy others. And it hurts when you destroy me. But I can't tell you that. Because what will you do if I tell you this? You'll hurt yourself more because you know you were wrong but no one has ever taught the children how to express themselves. You'll call yourself ugly, and disgusting, and selfish, and useless, and unworthy, and foul. You'll cut and stab and scratch. And it will be my fault. Or so that's what I tell myself.45Please respect copyright.PENANAPJYMa2jczg
But I know that it isn't my fault. I know I should tell you because you want me to express myself and be honest. We're both hurting so much and neither of us know how to deal with it. The amount that I care for you. It's so much, so heavy of a responsibility to keep you safe that I end up getting hurt.45Please respect copyright.PENANA7nqwzJJ25G
But in the end isn't it worth it? To see you just the littlest bit happier? So I'll keep destroying myself, again and again. And I'll let you destroy me, because if that's what it takes for you to be happy then that's what it takes.45Please respect copyright.PENANATxcsMZ7nBa
You're so beautiful. I wish you would believe it instead of letting the hate monster control your thoughts. You convince yourself that you're uglier then the hate monster but that's not true. And I'll always tell you how beautiful you are because I love you so much.45Please respect copyright.PENANArCQv1KNhUB
You're worth everything, no matter what your monster tells you. I love you so so much.45Please respect copyright.PENANAvJQEqwVQPL


