We spent time with my mother and daughter over the weekend, and when I had time, I talked to the lawyer that Leyla recommended to me and arranged a meeting day, and then I learned the addresses of the places given to my mother. I still couldn't forget the letter in the box. Kemal first addressed my mother in the letter and said that he was very sorry for what happened and that he would never leave her if he could, and that he could give his life for my mother and me. As a matter of fact, that's what happened, Kemal died because of us. Later in the letter, he talked about the house in Izmir and wrote that there was a section inside the house and that we needed to find the things hidden there. At the bottom of the letter there was a drawing that I guess belonged to that part of the house. It was like an underground tunnel. He also wrote how to reach this place. There was a key in the box along with the letter. He took that key and wanted the place he specified to be opened, but he did not say what was in that place. I didn't understand what the point was in creating so much mystery. This letter made me nervous and excited. The adrenaline inside me was rising rapidly.
I called Cenk and told him that I would stay with my mother for a few more days, tidy up the house and take care of some paperwork for my mother. Even though he said he could help, I tried not to attract suspicion by saying I would tell him if needed.
We had our breakfast immediately on Monday and set off towards Izmir. Elif woke up early and slept along the way. The address we found was an hour away from the city. When we arrived at that place, my daughter had just woken up. My mother also looked nervous and we didn't talk properly along the way. The house at the address was a ruined hut in a garden in a secluded place. There were the forest and the empty lands in its remote surroundings, which I thought were derelict. When I saw it, I was first surprised and then I was amazed by Kemal's mind. He chose such a place because he would never draw attention to this hut. After all, it was a ruined building belonging to a garden. I told my mother to wait in the car with Elif, gave her the tablet so that Elif would not whine, and walked towards the hut. When I came to the door, I saw that the door was not locked, but was attached with a piece of wood. I cautiously lifted the board up and opened the door. The door opened creaking and raising dust. It was covered in dust and soil. Spider webs covered everything. There were a few pieces of wood on the ground, shovels used for gardening around the edges, pickaxes and other materials. Anyone who entered here would think that the owner of this place was doing gardening.
I came to the corner mentioned in the letter and felt the ground, the boards were completely intact. If I think with Kemal's mind, he wouldn't take any risks and leave this place empty. I took the pickaxe on the edge and started hitting the woods. After breaking the woods in that corner, I started digging in the soil there with a shovel, but nothing came out, I dug about half a meter, I was stubborn, but no, the soil never ran out. Why did I trust this man so much that he was obviously making fun of us. I got angry, threw the shovel aside and tried to get out of the hole I had dug. Just then, a metal that appeared in a small part of the area. I dug there, yes it was an iron. I picked up the shovel from where I was throwing it and continued digging. After a while, the metal became visible. When I cleaned it completely, I realized it was a door. I cleaned around the door until it was completely visible, but I was done. I've been trying for about an hour. Then my phone rang and it was my mother. I opened it and hurriedly,
“Mom, I'm fine, don't worry, I'm trying to find the place that man showed me. I had to try hard, but I finally reached it, I'll be back soon. Please don't leave Elif.”
“Okay honey, don't linger too long, but this is a secluded place, don't let anything happen to us later.”
I hung up the phone and focused on the door I found. It was supposed to be opened from the top, but it looked rusty, I didn't think it would be easy to open. I took the pickaxe outside the pit and forced it through several places at the door. After a little effort, the rusty parts of the door relaxed, I grabbed the handle and hung towards myself with all my strength, and the door creaked open. It was pitch black down there and it scared the hell out of me. I hated dark and narrow places.
But now was not the time to be afraid, whatever this thing was, I had to find it immediately and return. I couldn't leave my daughter and mother there alone. I turned on my phone flashlight and slowly started going downstairs. When I got down I saw that it was like a warehouse. I looked around and realized there was a button. When I pressed the button, the surroundings were illuminated with a yellow light. This was a place like a shelter. It wasn't a very large place, it could only fit 2 people. There was a cedar-like furniture on the right, that's all. I took a look around and couldn't see anything significant. Then I went towards the place mentioned in the letter and lifted the cedar and pulled aside the mat underneath. A door appeared before me again. This was a much smaller door than the first door. I think this man had a disagreement with the doors. I took the key from the box out of my pocket, put it in the hole on the door and turned it. I had a little difficulty at first, but when I tried, I opened it. Another box appeared before me. I was running out of patience. Like Matryoshka dolls, something mysterious came out of every place I opened. I tried with ambition to get the box, but I couldn't lift it with one hand. I managed to force it out with both hands and opened it. There was a box full of gold in front of me and I was about to swallow my little tongue in surprise. When my surprise subsided a little, I reached for the gold and picked up a few of them. These were gold like the others.
I felt a little relieved because if it was a historical artifact or something, I could get in trouble. Well, how did this man find so much gold, could he have stolen it? Realizing that I needed to think about these things later, I quickly gathered myself together, wrapped the box in my jacket, made it like a bundle, and hung it on my shoulder. I had difficulty leaving the warehouse, it was time to close the door and hole I opened. I called my mother and told her that I found what was said and that I would be there soon. I closed the door, covered it again with the soil I had dug, and took the boards I had broken aside and placed them on the other boards on the ground. I put the safes I found around on it and made it so that nothing could be seen. When I looked away, the place I dug was camouflaged.
When I got in the car I was dying of exhaustion. I leaned my head on the car seat and closed my eyes. My mother looked at me with curious and questioning looks and started questioning.
“So what happened, Suna? What's that thing you put in that trunk? What is he hiding?”
“Mom, calm down a bit. I'm really tired, let me take a breath and I tell you everything”
“Okay girl. Then let's go and eat something. I gave Elif fruit, but she was hungry too.”
I started the car and set off. As I was leaving, I came to my senses a little more.
“There is a warehouse there, mom, according to the instructions, I went in and found a box with gold in it. There is a lot of gold, mom, as much as we can be millionaires.”
My mother put her hand to her mouth, she was very surprised.
“What gold? What kind of gold, historical artifacts?”
“ No, it's exactly the gold we know, from those years.”
“ How did he find all that gold? Oh Suna, don't let us get into trouble because of these golds.”
“I don't know, mom, but I will investigate and see if there was any theft of gold in those years, and I will learn these golds are stolen or not.”
Suddenly, a joy appeared inside me. If these golds are clean, it means I have become rich. And that's when I could do anything I wanted and live a better life. I looked at my mother with a smile.
“We may have become rich, mother. Then we can do whatever we want and live like kings”
She responded to me with a smile.
“Oh, you are right, Suna. Then, as a rich woman, buy us dinner at an expensive place.”
“ Mom, are you rich? I'd like lots of toys too, so let me know.”
We laughed out loud at what Elif said and set off towards the restaurant we were going to.
After eating delicious food in a nice restaurant, we walked around the sea for a while and went to a cafe and had a drink. When evening began to fall, I convinced my mother and went to the house where Cenk and I lived. I called Cenk and informed him that our work was finished early and that I had taken my mother and came home. I didn't want to catch Cenk with that woman without making a good plan. I took the box wrapped around my jacket from the car and we went home. When we entered, I went straight to the bathroom, took a short shower then we opened the box. I put on the table, and my mother and I started looking at the golds in front of us. My mother,
“The man I have been waiting for for years never reaches me even once during those years, but now he says, I left these to you. Life is really weird. I look at these and many people would be overjoyed when they saw these, but I feel nothing but pain. I wish he hadn't left us instead of leaving these and we had lived happily for little money.”
It hurt so much that I couldn't tell my mother the truth while she was talking with tears in her eyes, I had a hard time not saying anything.
“My dear mother, please don't upset yourself so much. I don't know this man at all, but I don't think he left you willingly. If so, would he do these things? Apparently things happened that we didn't know about. I think we should enjoy this fortune. What we went through all these years to earn some money. I became alienated from my profession, which I love, because of the private sector. You put up with my father for years because you had no money. I want to live my life now, mom. God knows how many more years we will live. If there is no problem with this gold, this is a blessing offered to us. Let's count, let's see how much our wealth is?”
Smiling, we emptied the box onto the table and a lot of gold was spread. We saw another folded paper at the bottom of the box. I laughed and took the paper,
“ mom, I definitely got this writing skill from Kemal. Look, he left a text everywhere. Apparently, he used the logic of words flying and writing remaining to the fullest.”
Mom giggled. I was happy to be able to make her smile a little.
“It was so, Mr. Kemal would never talk and always write if he could. I loved this feature.”
I opened the paper and started reading.
“My dear darling and my only child;
If you found this paper, it means I have achieved my goal. I wish I could be with you and not have to do something like this, but that's life, sometimes we can go in directions we don't want.
The meaning of my life, my love, I know you are very angry and resentful of me. You think I just left you and didn't care. But it's not like that, my love. I loved you madly. I know I shouldn't have loved you, I should never have met you, but I couldn't control it. I really wanted us to build a life together, live happily with our baby in our home, but fate did not happen. I'm so sorry for making you suffer for years, my only darling, but it had to be this way. I had to do this for our child.
Oh it hurts so much. I would give the world to see my child once. Is it a girl or a boy? Of course, it doesn't matter the gender, my dear. But I have a feeling it's a girl, maybe I want it that way, I don't know. A beautiful girl just like you...But if it was a boy, I would accept my baby with all my love.
My dear child,I have never met you, but first of all, I want you to know that I love you very much and I am proud of you. I'm sure you've become a very good, successful, wonderful person. I wanted so much to raise you and prepare you for life and live a life together, but it didn't happen.
I know it wasn't easy to reach what I left you, but if your determination and stubbornness attracted me, you definitely didn't give up. Please know that I resort to these methods because I do not want to put you at risk. I hope what I left behind will help me forgive myself a little bit so that you can live a comfortable life. I can almost hear you asking why you waited all these years. I waited because I knew your father. Since your mother was defenseless against him, that man would not leave you alone and would definitely waste the money. I waited for you to grow up and reach a certain maturity so that you could find a way to help your mother and yourself. I hope I achieved what I aimed for.
May you rest assured that the gold I left behind is what I earned through my own efforts. I leave you an address and name below as it will be difficult to store gold this way. Go there and find this man and exchange the gold. This man is trustworthy because he owed me a great debt of loyalty. He will pay this debt if he is still alive. Even if he is not alive, I'm sure he has handed over this task to someone.
Finally, I want you to know that I love you very much and I am always with you in spirit, even if it cannot be actual.
All the best you want”
when I finished reading the letter, my mother and I were crying. What he wrote particularly impressed me so much that I was surprised at what happened. This man, whose face I had never even seen, touched my heart and destroyed me. While I was longing for my father for years, I saw what I experienced and cursed life once again. Everything could have been very different. I could have grown up in a decent family and been a happy and normal person. Instead, I had to suffer for years.
When I looked at my mother, she was crying silently, exhausted. It must have been very difficult to live with this burden all these years. I hugged her tightly and wished for her pain to end. I would do whatever I could for this. I would not leave her alone, I would make sure she always stayed with me and spent the rest of her life happily.
When I looked at the time, I saw that there was half an hour left for Cenk to arrive. I hurriedly collected the golds and took them to the bedroom to hide it. At that moment, Elif woke up and we started preparing dinner with my mother.
When Cenk arrived, Elif was playing in the living room, my mother and I were quietly cooking in the kitchen. I strictly warned my mother not to reveal anything, otherwise it would make things difficult, and she told me not to worry, and that she could handle this situation as well as hiding me for years.
Cenk came to the kitchen and kissed my mother's hand.
“Welcome my dear mother. I'm so glad to see you, how are you?”
My mother immediately took on her role and cheerfully said,
“I'm fine, thank God. How are you? You've lost weight since you've seen it. Are you working too hard?”
“Yes, mom, very busy work these days. I don't have time to scratch my head”
“Oh my child I’m sorry for you. Come on, come on, let's set the table when the food is cooked, until then”
“My mom always thinks of me”
“Of course, I think, my son, I am entrusted to you, my daughter. You cherish him, you are honest, you are immanent, you have no gambling, you have no cheating.”
When my mother said these things, I involuntarily looked at Cenk's face and saw pain and sadness in his eyes. Even though he tried not to show it, he felt bad. But well done to my mother, she never showed her anger and knew how to say the words properly. I was very happy to have received this feature.
When the food was cooked and we sat at the table, everyone was absent-minded. Only my daughter was saying something loud and we were doing nothing but approving her. When we ate our meals and got to the couch, my mother said she was tired and went to the guest room. When we were alone with Cenk, Cenk sat next to me and put his hand on my shoulder.
“We were apart for two days, but I miss you so much, my wife. How was your holiday? I guess you didn't get much rest because of work. You look very tired. Your mother looked very tired too.”
“Yes dear, we had to do a very intense cleaning. We were both very tired while trying to deal with Elif and clean up.”
“I wish you had hired someone. So you wouldn't get tired for nothing.”
“It's like you don't know my mother, Cenk she would never let someone she doesn't know do any work.”
“You're right dear. I can massage you if you want, it will relax you”
“No need dear, I want to go to bed immediately.”
I got up and went to my room. When I lay in bed, the tiredness of the whole day fell on me and I fell asleep as I closed my eyes.
The next day I woke up and it was 9’ o'clock. My mother didn't wake me up to rest. I'm glad she did that, I got rested just a little. After having breakfast, I played with Elif for a while and set out to meet the lawyer. When I arrived at the cafe we had agreed upon, I ordered myself a coffee and started waiting. 10 minutes later, there was a medium-sized, white-skinned, cute man in front of me. For a moment, I couldn't help but wonder if this was the kind of lawyer Leyla said, but I trusted my friend. If she said so, she must have known something.
“Hello, isn't it Suna?”
“Yes, Mete, I am Suna, I am pleased”
He shook my hand with a sincere smile and sat across from me.
“would you like to drink anything Mete”
“ A coffee would be nice, thank you.”
We immediately called the waiter and ordered. At that moment, I turned my head and saw Leyla. With surprise,
“Leyla, what are you doing here?”
“ Hello to you too, honey. I hope you didn't think I would leave my close friend alone. I will be with you as much as I can, dear.”
“You are crazy. Come on dear, sit down.”
“Mete, how are you, honey. We haven't seen each other for a long time. I saw you well.”
“Thank you Ley, I am fine. It's so nice to see you.”
I laughed involuntarily and said “Ley? what does that mean.”
“Don't ask, honey, that's the name this jerk gave me. I didn't like it at first, but later I got used to it and even loved it.”
“But I think it's a nice name, my dear Ley. If I say Leyla like everyone else, where would be my difference.”
“I wonder when your desire to be different will end, my dear Mete?”
“I think I can answer that when it's over, my dear Ley. I think we should talk about our case and see what we will do.”
Look at Mete, I think it was as much as Leyla said. I really liked his repartee.
I told the whole incident about Cenk. Mete also took some notes while I was talking.
“Yes, Suna, two options are waiting for you now, either you will file a contested divorce and deal with your husband, or you will both agree and divorce by agreement. Which one is your choice?
“If it weren't for my daughter, I would never have thought about it and said it was the first option, but I can't do that now. Somehow I will convince Cenk and ensure our consensual divorce. What I really want to ask you is, if this divorce causes difficulties, what trump cards will we have against him? All I want is custody of my daughter, I don't care about anything else”
“I understand. If you want a consensual divorce, the case will be concluded within 1 to 3 months and this is the most logical thing for you. However, if a problem arises and the case turns contentious, a difficult process awaits us. Let me point out that having evidence in hand will make our job easier for you to win, but the trial will take at least a year. Custody is given to you in both cases. If you say you don't want anything, it would be good to convince your husband.”
Leyla caressed my hand tenderly.
“You're sure, aren't you, Suna. As Mete said, you can drag him if you want. You can have everything. When you divorce, you will be left alone. It would be good to at least have financial security.”
“I'm absolutely sure dear. First of all, I need to think about my daughter. I don't want her to get hurt, to lose her trust in her father and in men. Cenk is her father and role model of Elif. No one will know about this cheating incident except you, me and my mother. We will tell everyone that we are not get along with each other. Even though I don’t want, I'll try to forgive Cenk. I know it won't be easy, but I would do anything for my daughter.”
“I understand, dear. You are right too. I wish things will be in order soon, I hope, you will be happier.”
After chatting a little more, we said goodbye and left to go home. Along the way, I thought about how to talk to Cenk and how I could effectively convince him to get this consensual divorce, and when I finally had an idea, I immediately called my mother and informed her that she had to return to her hometown, so I would buy her a ticket.
The next afternoon, I sent my mother off and left Elif with Cenk's mother and asked if she could stay with them tonight. I told Cenk that we had things to talk about. Thank God, he accepted without questioning. After dropping off my daughter, I went shopping and bought ingredients to eat and some expensive drinks to drink. After sending a message to Cenk and telling him not to be late that we would be alone in the evening, I went home and started preparing a nice table. When the preparations were completed, it was 7 p.m. I immediately changed and put on a light make-up. The black dress I wore beautifully revealed my lines, giving me the image of an attractive woman prepared for her husband.
When Cenk came and entered the door, he first looked at me, then looked at the table and whistled. He didn't forget to buy flowers when he came. He took off his jacket, hung it and came up to me and hugged me.
“ My love, how beautiful everything is like this. Is today a special day that I forgot?”
“No, honey, I thought it wouldn't be necessary to have a special day to have a good time alone, so I decided to do something like this.”
“You thought very well, my love. You are so right, we need to do such things from time to time.”
We went to the table and ate our meals and made small talk. When the meal was over and we got to the couches, I was already in a good mood. Normally, drinking alcohol wouldn't hit me easily, but I think my head was slightly smoked from the excitement of what happened to me and what I was about to do. When Cenk went to the kitchen to refresh the drinks, the voice started talking.
“How the asshole hides his lie. Anyone who sees him will think he is a man who is very in love with us. Oh, we would cut off her reproductive organ and give it to her. Then this animal would learn what cheating is.”
“I can't deal with you now. You better shut up, I need to concentrate.”
Cenk must have heard my voice coming with the drinks “ Dear, did you say something to me?”
“I was wondering if we should watch a movie. I found a new movie, the plot is very different.”
“Of course, my dear, whatever you want.”
He sat next to me on the couch. I got up, brought the flash disk from the room and plugged it into the television. I don't know if it was adrenaline or drinking, I started to feel dizzy. I nodded and took my seat. When I took the remote control and pressed play, Cenk and that woman’s sex video started to play. I was looking at Cenk's face the whole time. The moment Cenk saw himself and that woman on the screen, he was first horrified, then panicked, turned to me and started babbling, not knowing what to do.
“Suna Suna I.. I.. how is this...?”
It hurt so much and I was angry that I couldn't help myself and slapped him hard in the face. I couldn't stop my tears and was crying like I was losing myself. My hands were shaking and I was having trouble breathing. For a moment my eyes seemed to darken, but I couldn't let myself go. I was going to hold on and finish this job today. We both sobbed for minutes but couldn't say anything. I took deep breaths and went to the bathroom to calm down and washed my face. When I return to the room and calm down a little more, just “why?” i could say.
Cenk was still shaking and crying and could not speak. I gave him some time to recover and repeated my question “Why?”
“ I'm so sorry, Suna. I love you so much and..”
“Shut up! Don't you dare tell me about clichés, then I can't keep my cool. Now tell me how this happened. How did it start?”
He took a deep breath and took a sip of his drink.
“She was a customer who came to my workplace. At first we were just meeting for business. Then she started to become more frequent for her to come to my workplace. She was constantly finding excuses for work. I understood that she was interested in me, but I definitely did not give up. Then do you remember, you and I had a fight and I left home. That day, while drinking at office, she came and stayed there to console me. I don't know how much I drank. When I woke up the next day, we were lying naked on the couch with her. Even though I said it was a mistake and we should forget, she did not accept it. she took our photos and video. She threatened me to show these to you. She just wanted me to be with her at certain times and said she didn't have any other expectations. I was so scared, Suna, I was deathly afraid of losing our daughter and you. I had to accept the condition and now here we are. What I feared happened to me. She must have been tired of me so she gave you this video.”
“I really don't care how difficult a situation you are in. I'm so sorry for you. It is already very clear in the video how you suffer. Cenk, are you kidding me?! Be honest and say everything properly for once! Don't worry, I won't do anything to you. That woman didn't give me this video, so she doesn't know me, don't worry, I've never met her. You can be together as long as you want after me.”
He got up and came with a box from inside. It said performance enhancer on it.
“ The medicine I use because I don't want her at all. Everything I say is true, believe me. I knew that if that woman showed you the pictures, you would never forgive me. I didn't want to be without you and my daughter and I tried something like this. I know I was wrong, but I couldn't think straight. As a matter of fact, my thoughts turned out to be true, you will leave me, right?”
“Anyway, Cenk, this situation does not concern me anymore, whether you loved me or were forced together, after all, you cheated on me. As I say in every conversation, cheating is my thickest red line. There is no amnesty or compensation. I know what I've been through since I found out. You destroyed my already unstable trust. Now we are just Elif's parents, that's all. If it weren't for Elif, I would make you experience hell on earth in such a way that you can't imagine it, rest assured, but we have a daughter and she is our priority. I don't know when I can forgive you, Cenk, but we will meet for our daughter and treat each other well. If she experiences even the slightest trauma because of us, I will make everything difficult for both of us. If you have even the slightest respect left for me, divorce me by agreement and give me custody of my daughter. I don't want anything from you financially, just having my daughter in custody is enough. What do you say, do you accept consensual divorce?”
Cenk was still crying, but a little calmer. When I finished speaking, he put his hands between his head and exhaled distressedly. When he looked up at me, his eyes showed how devastated and regretful he was.
“Is that so,Suna, there is no chance for us? Well, whatever you want. I don't have the face to say anything against you. I don't want to lose respect and lose my daughter. I accept everything you said. But I will open an account for my daughter and give you the authority. Half of what's mine and you'll get these too. This house is yours too, don't let your order be disrupted. I want you to accept these terms too.”
“OK, accepted. As long as there is no problem. Our friends and family will definitely not know the situation, Cenk. Everyone will think we broke up because we didn't get along. That's why we need to do this divorce quietly. You can stay here until the case is concluded. Afterwards you can go wherever you want. I will stay in this city because Elif's loved ones are here. Don't worry, I won't push her away from any of you. My biggest request from you is to spend time with my daughter as if we were married. Don't leave her just because we broke up.”
“You planned everything, Suna. What would you expect anyway. You have to plan everything and expect everyone to follow it. Even if the plan is not followed, you ticket yourself and that's it.”
“Are we going to talk about these right now, Cenk. Are we really going to talk about my behavior in the middle of this situation. If you had told me, Cenk, if you had told me! If my behavior made you this way, you should have said you wanted to break up and then fucked whoever you wanted to fuck. Didn't we talk to you from the very beginning? No matter what, if we couldn't make it happen, would we break up? What happened, couldn't you be patient? Or did you say that if I had both of them, as most of you do, too much stuff wouldn't be worth it. Of course, the other woman obviously accepted it, or she doesn't even know about me. Did you find her more attractive then me? “
“Okay Suna, I'm sorry. You're right, I have no right to speak after what I've done. You thought very well. Let's do whatever is best for our daughter. What you say is easy. Even if you don't let me, I will be with my daughter, Suna, she is my everything.”
He reached for the cup on the coffee table and drank it in one gulp and laughed troubled.
“I'm finally getting rid of that woman, but I lost you. Life is truly ironic and cruel.”
This situation of his hurt me more and made me even more angry. I wasn't sure what he said was true, but if I knew Cenk at all, he was definitely sincere. I knew his shy and cowardly behavior well. I knew this when we met, but I guess I ignored it. If he wasn't such a coward, maybe we wouldn't be like this. Although my thick lines would not allow this, I knew myself very well. In a slightly softer voice,
“Even if I believed what you said, I couldn't do it, Cenk. Yes, people make mistakes, this is normal and can be forgiven, but this mistake is not for them, it is for me. I can't say it happened once and it's okay. Even if I tried, we both know very well that I would make our lives miserable. I've been thinking this way for as long as I can remember, I can't change that now.”
“I know Suna, I'm aware. We talked about these for years. You are a good person. You've been so good to me since we met. You were always there for me no matter what. I know we wouldn't have experienced this if I wasn't so weak and cowardly, but when a person is involved, everything is not that easy. I thought I could handle it, but it didn't work. I have always loved you and always will. I promise I will be stronger from now on. I won't be the same again. Maybe I lost you, but I won't lose hope, this is life, maybe it won't be obvious again...”
“I'm not in a position to talk about these right now, I'm really going to break your heart even more. You said that woman threatened me. If you leave her, if she tries to hurt Elif or me? I don't want to get into trouble.”
He looked at me, spreading fire from his eyes.
“I put up with that woman so as not to lose you. Such a situation is no longer possible. Don't worry, if she tries to move forward, I will make her understand exactly what will happen to her.”
I got goosebumps as he spoke. I've never seen him like this before. It was as if his eyes suddenly turned and someone else was talking, not him. It was impossible not to take what he said seriously. But I wrote in the back of my head to deal with this problem and keep my daughter and myself safe because I couldn't trust him anymore.
We were both exhausted from crying. Cenk looked into my eyes for a long time and suddenly hugged me. At first I tried to push him away, but when he didn't let go, I didn't insist, so we cried for minutes. At the turning point of our lives, we would no longer be husband and wife. I was very scared and worried, but I had to be strong. I was a lonely woman now...
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