Still Holding On - A girl like me....

So its good uhn?10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIC9b6ga1VH

I already told you yes, Kaddy responded back angrily.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWN3iZKZjs

I was happy she found my outfit attractive and befitting for school. Its not everyday you see a lion and a dog play together in the field.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGpCBwwUAp

Kaddy being on the same page as me is intriguing but dangerous, and I know what am doing now may later cost me a thing or two.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EJ2uvPHkk

When Kaddy clocked 14, she stopped been herself and barely engage into conversations with me without resulting into us Clawing our throats out.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRVl3CYjwh

Are you sure its cool for me to go to school today like this i questioned again carefully, suspecting her quick positive response to be a no no dress code.

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Especially with the happy dance she displayed, failing to hide the disgusted facial expression she had on when I turned my back at her to look into the mirror but, her response still remains unchanged.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfelF5jXDLw

Like i said, have never been the fashionista kind of girl, i only try my possible best to be comfortable and not wear clothes that are too revealing or too trendy.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKpzLO80Kz

Actually, my wardrobe is full of clothes that protects me from the cruel judgment of the outside world, the kind is clothes that will only attract friends that has been rejected by the reigning chicks and kings of the school, if you know what I mean.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUOcbfP873

I stood right in front of the mirror, checking myself out longer, maybe I was doing that to tell myself I really look good as she say. Will i ever wear a dress like this to school if she hadn't given a positive remarks? Maybe Kaddy is right, beauty goes a long way and it goes beyond been smart, you need a good face too if you need to build a strong self esteem.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoBtIOYr98

Am eager to know what everyone thinks about me at school besides the freak in a hoodie and untrendy wears. Am holding on to a the last brink of self esteem, i dont think getting to know the thoughts of everyone will end up ruling in my favour.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIJ5BM5v97

I turned back around to see Kaddy has left, she probably did that while i was busy checking myself out in the mirror, i grabbed my simple bag designed by me and rushed out of the room in search of her.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NwqBnur5y

Kadd-10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkekuq99dFL

Oops, i missed a step and tripped over expecting the worst possible outcome.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ftJaZJAcf

Hey! Hey! Hey!10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXb8bE5DCf

Relax, have got you. Eric my cousin warned wrapping his huge hands around my waist, saving me from loosing a tooth.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8F0WC3wAsk

My dad took a quick glance at us before shaking his head at me. Don't ask me how that happened, cos am still clueless about it but something tells me the she devil is involved, judging by the victory smile on her face because no one I repeat ever leaves pebbles on the stairs.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6pPVLdxvd

What's funny? I asked.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVdSMhXjuX

Let it go, Eric said.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8D6Q5pBo5

I gave him a look that said for real, he nodded, he knew if he doesn't intervene, my sis and i will get to it again so he saved the day again.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5EO14R6ye

Let's go. He said dissolving whatever it is that got me clouded to act before thinking things through which is basically not my thing. I always think things through, even when it comes to little things.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhi9EazTEm5

You are leaving today? I asked seeing the box in his hands.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLT6eIigWTd

Will you visit again? Maybe over the weekend I asked him.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbK0F6yvFFR

And watch you two fight like cat and dog, he asked.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPS8Kk54qu4

Nope but i promise to stay in touch with my favorite girls, he teased. And, am kidding about my reasons for not visiting soon he said scratching his head, have got----10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEftUVT7X4

Yeah we hear that all the time but you never keep to your promise, Kaddy added.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OswOOSQVG

Eric kept his promise to me, its the only thing i feel bad for and, if i had a blabbering mouth like her, she will have found our little secret out.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57rlx4W2bV

This time will be different Eric said, kissing Kaddy's cheeks.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6xLeWaFfx

Bye daddy Kaddy said earning herself a tight hug.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaR2rg3XLE

See you later dad, i gave him a hug too hurriedly, not wanting to ignite someone's jealousy.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2Oj6pAlrS

The ride to school was fun with Eric describing his look way back in high school when he thought he was trendy compared to the kids of now. School is just fifteen minutes walk from home, when you catwalk but when you are not, its ten minutes approximately.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkk650QTLpB

Someday's when am not lost in thought but tired of education, i arrive at exactly fifteen minutes forty seconds and days when the force of the world is against me like the monthly visitor, i arrive twenty five minutes later.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybH7rwDliN

Kaddy did not really have to face the struggle of walking down since she met this weird street guy on craps always waiting for her at the corner, i have this urge to spill her dirty secret but am afraid dad won't waste any time in informing Eric about it.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3TUBku4rV

Eric has a dark side when it comes to protecting us, something about a promise he made to our mom before she passed on during child birth.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IBZV3yg4e

You girls be good okay, okay, we said together at the same time before waving him off.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsbZ6G4Sox

My heart beat decided to betray me after Eric left by racing up gradually at nothing but the fear of the unknown. At Cringhston bay high school, fashion is their number one priority but do not forget how great they are when it comes to criticizing you.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3piVhI7BcE

How you laugh, eat, study or the friends you move with matters.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡex0vWKTOlb

It felt like my brain was been down sized to a cube and my soul is battling to adjust within the space its been confined into. I could tell my lungs was closing up on me with the lack of air i was getting, i don't need a doctor to tell me my panic attack was settling in.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJdDmU1NsT

You are going to be okay, i kept chanting to my self kicking the tiny stones on the floor.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6EasfhgjG

Hey! Loosen up ugly. Kaddy said with a pat to my back and a wink before trudging off to her slutty groupies.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tJmklUYPH

I know she meant well but the nick name ugly, is my worst nightmare. She knows that and still throws it in my face in school under the pretence of been concerned10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABMpeKQCDC

Ignore her, dads comforting voice resounded in my ears.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeH9WuM8Q6

Forget her, my cousins words kept re-playing in my head.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6W6RSeeU6O

And with that, i pulled my hoodie more to the front, leaving my worries behind. It was working, my panic attack was cooling down, taking baby steps like my cousin taught me.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuN8WrVOXIg

I wasn't the scared kitten type like before but i wasn't brave either. I just knew how best to blend in with the crowd when it comes to surviving.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwmiTlMECI

The only person who enjoys picking on me constantly from time to time like a drug addict is Catalina, Kaddy's best pal.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIuB7jbjjf

You see Kaddy still has a tiny dot of brain left, Catalina's head is absolutely empty and replaced with evil and vile things like my twin.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLjRoq6LZ8

Education is nothing to her, the inheritance from her father is the only thing she has her mind set on, if she is lucky to get her hands on it, her next three generations does not need to study or work to live a comfortable life..10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmXnGHJ16I

Hey!!10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpDbXPlJKL

I ignored, well it's not like i was expecting anyone. Actually i have no one to converse with.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ59Ay2HXoU

Hello!!10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GWCqJZdMM

My name is Bella a girl said blocking my path panting from running after me, thank God its a girl. Wait what? Is she really talking to me right now?10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFj5OsKw4dy

I asked myself quietly before stylishly taking a quick peek at her, God, she is beautiful. Her beauty made me want to become best friends with her but i was suspicious of her sudden approach of knowing me more.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8f40id85QP

To protect myself, i mastered the best skills of "silence" is the best treatment. "there is no way am going to say a thing to her" i just hope she takes the hint and walk away.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9pBULfA4W

But she didn't. I wasn't mad at her like i expected myself to be, but i noticed I was now sweating and rocking my body on the spot. Hurray she under four minutes succeeded in pushing me into a zone of no comfort.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lBG0780TJ

Are you okay?10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oS3IesIOE

Yeah, I answered with my mouth closed.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9rKzX1AVx

Are you ill? Do i take you to the school nurse.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5qKcn78oJ

I nudged her to look behind her and took that as an opportunity to escape having a conversation with her.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2MO0gMhUj

It worked. At least for now.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQB3YJhPPL

Looking behind me one last time, my heart broke at the sad expression she wore.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4UjZkj7Yx

I guess she never saw that coming from a girl like me.

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