Sitting in sunlight, hair running wild with winds but still in a braid . Covered fully like don't want to show themselves a little to the world . Eyes filled with pain , tears , hope or maybe just grief or sadness that is tearing their soul apart . Did something happen to make them so sad ?
I thought of asking them but my eyes still remained on that person fully . I just wanted to know the turmoil inside their head or maybe I just wanted to feel that I am not alone feeling like this .
A sudden guest of wind with dirt came , it went into my eyes . I blinked rapidly to get the dirt out of my eyes , it was just a human response, right .
I was in front of the mirror , staring at me or that person, I don't know. Eyes blank but still filled with tears . I wanted to cry to show my pain but didn't know what pain i was crying for ? That person still remained in my vision , with the same grief and pain .
We were both at the roof surrounded with sunlight , plants and clothes . View was fascinating. Everything felt nurturing . The sky looked breathtaking with the white clouds and the little redness of the sunrise . Then slowly the sun emerged like a beautiful picture .
My eyes were numb now. I looked at the scenery and beauty around me but my heart can't let go that pain it held.
I looked back at the mirror to see my face but i didn't see mine . I tried to blink away the blur to see myself but I saw someone else not me . I saw a girl who was so beautiful,her eyes looked like that honey is glowing in her brown orbs when she stood in sunlight. Her hair was dark in colour , loosely braided , some hair were out , moving slowly with wind . Her lips were heart shaped , a little pink and mild dark in colour . Her eyes were almond shaped with monolids . Face was small like a little child . Nose was big in size compared to her face but she was beautiful but sad . Depressed .
Her eyes looked haunting but beautiful. If you look at her then you would feel the grief in her eyes . I stopped looking at her or me , i don't know.
It was just a mind trick played on me by my own mind . So that I would survive by erasing all my memories. Everything was same but it felt errie , haunted , uncomfortable.
I just read a line that said , body remembers everything even if your mind erase the memories .
I named her different. I looked at her without clothes and I saw horror in my eyes . I saw body filled with horrible scars .
I went to doctor. I stopped harming her body. Started taking care of her like she was my child . I loved her most but the felling of being trapped, paralysed still lingered everyday in this body .
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