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From: Hannah
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Do you really love me, Hannah? I just feel like you’re pretending to be in love with me. Do you just feel bad for me? Do you pity me? Don’t hurt me, please. I can’t be hurt again like this. Don’t stay if you have no real feelings for me, please, please don’t hurt me. 65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOHYlhXa5f
This is the story about how I fell in love with my childhood best friend. 65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMyG3sbvEX
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Me and Cadence’s mom’s have been friends since middle school, so when we were born, we were bound to be friends. Play dates and sleepovers with each other was routine. Her family was mine, and my family was hers. One day, her parents got separated. Her mom cheated on her dad, and you can probably fill in the blanks. I was the only one in her corner then. I’ll forever be there, be there for her. 65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufcjnUJfvn
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But it all started when we were about 9 or 10 years old, when we were having a sleepover at her house. We were curious. Her room was in the basement. We kissed once, and few other times. We were just curious little girls. But then it turned into something more. When we were about 11 or 12 years old, we would kiss a lot. Nothing else, just innocently kissing. No one knew obviously. But then it turned into something else once more, but negatively. 65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsr4mazU7gR
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One day I realized I mistaken my love for her as friendly love, not as a significant other. She was going through mental health issues, and I felt terrible if I would just put that all on her at once. I was her escape. I was her coping mechanism, the person she could feel safe around. She could and has told me everything, I was always by her side no matter what. But then I finally told her—I figured out my feelings and I’m heterosexual.
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Of course, she was upset. I expected her to be, she had a right to be. I asked her if we could possibly just be friends. She looked devastated. My heart twists when I think of that moment. A lump grows in my throat every time I think of it. I hate seeing her upset, I hate it when she feels sad. But what are happy times if there are no sad times? I truly do love Cadence, I think she deserves the world, but I can’t help but only feel attracted to the opposite gender. Would she understand in the end?
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The answer is no, she doesn’t understand. To this day, I’ve haven’t spoken to her. I hate the fact that I’ve lost one of the most important people in my life, my first crush, but I just have to remind myself; People come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. And I’ll just have to live with that.
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