The heartaches that keep coming back
My favorite band, the parasocial relationship
Lasted longer than almost every friendship from that time in my life
Ten years is a damned long time to be lonely
But at least Mayday Parade had been lonely here alongside me
Alongside betrayals and fuck ups and somehow
He had relationships that existed enough to write songs about
Where I get vague-posting, poetry i get asked to take down since
I'm not famous. Nobody wants this...
I'm done with all of it, in solitude where I walk alone
Clear cut and prominent
Then again I'm turning twenty five and
Well, someone a decade my senior is having the world tear her to pieces
At least an invisible nonentity doesn't have that to fear.
I didn't exist during the time the lead singer croons about missing
In one of the songs on the newest album, Sad.
What It Means To Fall Apart was the soundtrack to my last year of university
Which somehow is going on two years since the ending, and yet
I'm no closer to their very few love songs than I was when I mourned my first breakup
Ten years ago last February.
I hope to God sometime soon I'll have a new first kiss with someone
Who ends up being maybe a muse, maybe, or maybe I should just enjoy not needing to
Write so many break up songs I title the most recent one Break Up Song.
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and then Add to home screen.