In Maxim’s childhood world, everything was quieter than elsewhere. Even the wind seemed to whisper softer by his window. He rarely cried—not because he was brave, but because crying made his head ache. And everything else ached too. He was the kind of child who could fall ill from a draft, from someone’s shout, from a TV turned up too loud.
His mother always said,206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDAXlqX2nN
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“You’ve got too kind a heart, Max. It tires faster than the rest.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbuGr1pyU3
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He didn’t understand then that she wasn’t talking about his heart, but his soul—and that it wasn’t kind, but fragile.
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A small table. Watercolors. A jar of cloudy water. A piece of bread. Maxim paints—carefully, meticulously, as if it’s something more than a picture. He paints a house. His mother. The sun. Himself—a little figure with crooked arms, but smiling.
His mother strokes his hair from behind.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZgFEDGLSS
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“Pretty. That’s us?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWmeHnXhe9
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“Mm-hmm,” he hums.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LPwQUpWpU
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“Why didn’t you draw your dad?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3yKWj4fvP
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He shrugs. “No space.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleTdLxqZcN
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She smiles, but her eyes go sad. He notices—and feels ashamed. He wants to fix it, add his father in. But his hand won’t move.
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It’s just that next to his father, there’s always darkness.
His father comes home late. The smell of alcohol arrives before he does. Sometimes with the heavy footsteps, the door slam, the shouting. His mother shrinks then, becomes smaller, hides her smile in her palm.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUT1RUAULgA
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“Go to your room, sweetheart. I’ll come in a bit.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5edheOWEuX
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He obeys. Not always. Sometimes he sits by the door, listening.
At first—just voices. Then—thuds. Blows. The sound of things hitting walls. The sobs. The crash of falling objects.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZSJ77l6dA
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Then silence.
That ringing kind that makes your ears hum. He would press his hands over them, close his eyes, whisper:206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdINZgVrmyH
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Please stop, please stop, please…
And sometimes, it actually did.
That day his mother told him that if he ever got scared, he should hide.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7eWsOt10Y
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“In the closet,” she said, opening the door where her dresses hung.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTc2sEeZ73V
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“What about you?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuul28ACpi
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“I’ll be right there. I promise.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRal4zRZCG
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He nodded. He believed her completely.
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His mother brews raspberry tea, sweet-smelling. Maxim sits at the table, swinging his legs.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWO4BHGtGAO
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“You’ve got school tomorrow,” she says softly.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJQW8q02An
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“I don’t want to go.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdGo2MyTH8
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“Why not?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuICcObKPQb
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“It’s loud.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsZbT1U9e9
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She laughs. “But there are friends there.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEi01yGEyo
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“I don’t know how to make friends.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcm8HeePvJ
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“You’ll learn,” she says with confidence.
He smiles. He likes it when she talks like that—as if she can defeat any misfortune.
But trouble never knocks. It barges in.
A slam. The door. A bottle clattering to the floor. His mother turns, no surprise in her eyes now—only tiredness.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTaJfHZ8Ts
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“Again?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvA5v6IwLHS
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“What do you mean again?!” His father’s voice shakes the walls. “Where’s the money, Natasha?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXxuRDyqJL
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“We… talked about this—”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9T9eGjR5Cy
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“We talked? You talked!”
He staggers forward.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRIw8VGT1f
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Mother grabs Maxim’s hand, pulls him toward the closet.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpoVkydRAt
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“Quiet. Quickly. Don’t breathe,” she whispers.
He obeys. He already knows something bad is coming.
The closet smells of soap and her perfume. Through the crack he can see a slice of the room. His father hurls the bottle at the wall.
“Stop!” she cries. Her voice cracks.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGv8ATx8qDC
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He steps closer. His arm rises.
Maxim wants to run out—but can’t. His body won’t move. His insides lock up.
Then—a blow.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzGC9JB0X5
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A dull sound. The crash of glass.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTYeOq96iv
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And then—silence.
That same silence he would hate for the rest of his life.
When Maxim opened his eyes, the ceiling was strange—white, with a crack in the corner. He didn’t understand where he was at first. The air was thick enough to write on with a finger. Moving felt like a dream.
The system’s voice hovered at the edge of hearing:206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8jr438hQ3
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[Mode: passive recovery.]
He blinked. His throat was dry. His lips salty—probably from tears.
On the chair sat Lapin. No ears now. Gray sweatpants and a hoodie. Calm eyes, almost curious.
“You lost consciousness,” Lapin said. “For about twenty minutes.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjh1tqjn9OW
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“And the neighbors?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkvKu7mprc
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“Gone. I convinced them you were sick.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMBWZKS6zg
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Maxim gave a weak smirk. “Not exactly a lie.”
Lapin tilted his head slightly. “The system warned me. Your psyche is unstable.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwI680wS6k
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“Yeah. Thanks for the update, doctor.”
He tried to stand, but his legs shook. Lapin leaned forward to help, but Maxim waved him off.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUguI3ZGIKF
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“Don’t touch me.”
Silence. The air froze.
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Maxim turned sharply. “Stay out of that.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpyzsFUS1V
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“I’m not in it,” Lapin replied calmly. “The signal was too strong.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaCwm8tjfd
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“It wasn’t a signal,” Maxim rasped. “It was a memory.”
He sat down again, buried his face in his hands. The quiet pressed in on him.
“When you were eight,” Lapin said gently, “you met what humans call… fear.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1aVyZnfF7
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Maxim gave a bitter laugh. “No kidding. Thanks, Captain Obvious.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dmAgsj4kd
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“You joke,” Lapin said, “because that’s how you survive.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoHjuki5kB
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“It’s the only thing left,” Maxim murmured.
He closed his eyes. The scene replayed again. His mother. The closet. The glass.
Tears slipped down his face before he even felt them.
“She died,” he whispered.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISUnQWbMor
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“I know,” Lapin said softly. “The system showed me.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkyR5QMXIT
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“Of course it did. It knows everything, doesn’t it?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcezxXdL07
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“Almost everything. But not feelings. They can only be observed.”
Maxim let out a hollow laugh. “I don’t feel anymore.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomYP5KGHSo
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“That’s not true.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZm4A7Fd4Vs
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“It is. I’m just… empty.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4c55tmHvrf
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“Then where do the tears come from?”
He didn’t answer. His hands still trembled—but not from fear. Just because his body didn’t know what else to do.
Night. He never slept.
Lapin sat by the window, silent. His reflection in the glass looked pale, moonlike. Maxim lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking that once he’d wanted to be an artist. To paint people who smiled. But after that day, he never painted again.
Colors annoyed him. Especially red.
“You know,” he said quietly, eyes still closed. “My mom always protected me. Even when she couldn’t.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3CGktgyC8
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“And you wanted to protect her.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJua7LkdW54
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“I did.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJhsRMS5Rn
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“Why couldn’t you?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqG44H40p2W
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“I was a child.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDy9FGn6Nm
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“But you still blame yourself.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgO9vRSRUD
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“Of course. Who else is there to blame?”
Lapin came closer, sat at the edge of the bed.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5TEM9IGje
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“You’re not guilty,” he said. “Weakness isn’t a sin.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ja4bSqNFU
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“For the system it is,” Maxim muttered.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcnPG8cO7c
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“Not for me.”
He turned to look at him.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbDPZQ6n6A
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“Why do you even protect me?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2htckDf3VA
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“That’s what I was made for.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQXM9SaeiF
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“Can you lie?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUH9S4ptGb4
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“No reason to.”
He said it so simply that Maxim suddenly believed him.
Morning was gray. Still. The air felt lighter, but inside—still empty.
The system was silent, except for a faint pulse deep within:206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMxGTQEIkN
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[Emotional response restored: 12%.]
He smiled without joy.206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAFcELBCIx
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“Twelve percent. Progress.”
Lapin poured tea. “You’re still human,” he said. “You can feel.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCzOMiqeYt
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“What if I don’t want to?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEheVLmmgb
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“Then that will be your feeling.”
Maxim rubbed his eyes. “You know, Lapin…”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvW02oMvlmO
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“Mm?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjvJM5NXTJ
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“If I ever break again—hide me in the closet.”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaE5SXJEza
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“Like when you were eight?”206Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8088lM3y9
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“Yeah. Just… don’t promise you’ll stay.”
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“I won’t promise,” he said at last. “I’ll just be there.”
Light spilled across the floor in pale stripes. Maxim sat on the bed, sipping tea, thinking that for the first time in a long while—he wasn’t thinking about fear. Just quiet.
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And maybe, this time—he wasn’t alone.
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