**Song: Me and the Devil by Soap & Skin**
**Solana's POV**
Sleeping tonight wasn't as hard. Yes there were still nightmares about Luna, but they were easier to bear knowing she would be okay. Everything was going to be okay. We would all make it out alive. Just wait and see. Will was sure, so I was sure, right?
Anyways, I'm personally doing great my mental state is trash, my actual health is probably declining, and I get boat sick. Luna was the only one who knew. She saw me throwing up once.
That memory brings up a chain of thoughts. All overcome, but DEFINETLY not welcome. I can't deal with this right. Not with the prophecy, Luna being gone, and the weird tenseness on the ship. How we all know that the worst is yet to come as we sail to Circe's island to, quote on quote, 'help her'. Yeah right! She'll probably try to kill me and Luna, while turning Nico and Will into guinea pigs! It's annoying to think about! We're basically sailing into a trap, while Nico and Will act ignorant.
Oh, Luna might die on this island? Sure lets go there too!
Like, you do know Luna will most likely die. The probability of us saving Luna dangerously low. In fact, I'm beginning to think Will made a promise he couldn't keep. Like the world will probably be like, sike!, and Luna will die. It's the worst way possible to be thinking right now.
Even if we save Luna, will we even make it out alive? It's like the cards are stacked against us. Nico should just shadowtravel Luna here so that we could go home. It's the best possible solution. Will the quest be finished? No! But at least we will all be out of it alive. Can you even go back after failing a quest? Is it that important to the point where we have to risk everything? I feel like I'm the only one thinking rationally.
Anyways, I decide to stop thinking about this stuff. Psyching myself out will just make everyone else uncomfortable. Besides, it's not that good for my mental health. I'd like to stay alive please. Was everything going to be okay? Now that I think about it, probably not. But hey, let's tell ourselves we'll all make it out alive.
I decide to begin thinking like the others. Let's not think rationally. It's the best for everyone. My mental health and theirs. Nico and Luna can get us out of any situation easily with their shadowtraveling anyways. It's not like we won't have a way out of this situation.
I head to the mess hall. I'm starving and it's almost nine, so I better hurry. I can't skip breakfast. Unlike Luna, I need all three meals just in case for my powers. Can't have a burnout. Will told me he had one once when, and this is the funny part, he was taking care of Nico. That time, it was Nico's turn to get mad at Will for overusing his powers.
Anyways, for breakfast it's just some Chick-n-minis. I'm pretty sure Will loves them. I eat in silence, hoping that no one comes looking for me.
"Hey Solana!" Speak of the devil. It's Will, of course.
"Hey." I sound kind of bored. I guess I have been spending all morning wondering whether we're going to die, and without even eating food. You do get bored of that after a while.
"You good?" He looks like he's just trying to start up a conversation.
"Yeah. Just, thinking." He gives me a look that says 'you're serious?'
"Nico said the exact same thing thing, I'm pretty sure." He laughs a little bit, but I know what that means for Nico. That means Nico was thinking about all the bad things in life again.
"I'm fine." I'm pretty sure that I'm lying at this point. Maybe a few weeks earlier I might have said it and genuinely meant it, but not anymore.
"You sure? It seems like something's wrong." He sounds genuinely concerned. That's Will for you, always feeling concerned for others. It's like his nature. Scratch that, it's like it is the thing he was made to do. To care when others wouldn't. Sometimes it is quite annoying.19Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbhgLT80zA
I breath out loudly. "No one is thinking rationally, we're probably walking into a trap, and Luna is going to die. I wonder what gruesome way it'll happen. Knife? Gun? Poison? Electric chair? Anything could happen at this point."19Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEz4Kr6CD4w
Will just nods. No consoling sentence. No 'I'm sorry Solana'. It makes me happy and angry at the same time. It makes me happy he isn't trying to be really optimistic, however it makes me feel kind of like he doesn't care. It's very confusing.
"Y'know, it hurts all of us. At first I blamed myself." I can't tell if this is true or not, but I accept it like it's the truth. Sounds sort of like something Will would do, so I don't doubt it too much. How can someone like him relate to someone like me? It's just weird to think about.
"Did Nico blame himself too?" Will's got me intrigued. I would be very surprised if he did. He's always like, 'I'm a gay emo bean who barely knows how to love. Stay away from me or else'. I guess he's not that different from the rest of us? No way, not him.19Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBJt6PGgBf
"Yeah. He didn't want to admit it, but I could see it in his eyes. The way they fell whenever I said her name." This takes me by surprise. Nico DiAngelo. The person lots of people fear. Missing his half-sister. Isn't it ironic? Even he can love.
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"Yeah, most of the time I don't know how deep they go." He begins to look sad. Like a slapped puppy. He's clearly thinking about how Nico masks what he's feeling. He has some trust issues I guess. I don't know why he wouldn't trust his own boyfriend. Could he be keeping Will from overreacting about what's happening in his life. Either way, Will's concerned about him. I wish I had a relationship like that.
I guess I did have a relationship like that with Luna. I'm constantly concerned about her and her antics. I love her. How come as soon as I'm ready to ask her out, she's across the ocean about to die. Wow world, is this some type of karma? For not showing her enough affection or something?
"I should probably go." I finished my breakfast and need to go get ready for the day. I get up and throw away my trash. Then I go to my room. I make my bed, clean my room, pick out an outfit, and then play some music. I REALLY like listening to Mother Mother. I play my playlist, and Arms Tonite comes on. It's my favorite Mother Mother song.
I begin to dance around my room. I love to do ballet, but no one knows. I begin to start a routine I create. It goes tombe, pas de bouree, glissade, glissade, gran jete, chaine, chaine, then finally an arobesque. It's a basic grand allegro, but it's really fun. By the time an hour has passed, I'm laying on the floor sweating like I've just run a marathon. It's where I get my dopamine from.19Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nyj9vFYdO
I lay on my bed and watch Murder Drones. For those of you who don't know, it's a show about these drones who explore outside of the safety of their home, but there's this virus going around called The Absolute Solver, and one of them has it. They need to stop a rogue drone named Cyn who tried to get everyone to have The Absolute Solver. It's a 10/10. Would recommend.
After a couple of hours, I hear a knock on my door. I'm almost finished with episode 8. I pause the show and open the door to see Percy.
"Hey." I say.
"Hey." He parrots back
"You gonna repeat everything I say?" I ask him. It's annoying when people do this. You can't possibly expect me to be satisfied with a conversation when it's just an echo of everything I say.
"Nope. I have something to tell you really quickly." He seems a little nervous, but when you're a demigod you're always nervous.
"We're at Circe's Island."
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