**Song: Dirty by Grandson**
**Luna's POV**
"DEAD?!?!" I practically jumped out of the bed. I didn't care that I was supposed to be resting or anything. Solana was dead, and it was my fault. I can't fucking believe that those idiots let her kill herself to save me. No! She wasn't supposed to do that! Those idiots!
"Luna, chill out." Will was too calm about all of this. His own half-sister was dead and he's just chilling like it's the most known fact in the world!
"I can't chill! You let her kill herself for me! I can't believe how stupid you are!" Will started to walk towards me. For every step he took, I stepped backward. My only anchor in this messed up world is dead on my behalf. The shock wears off and I'm left with feeling of sadness and emptiness. "You don't know what it feels like." My voice is steady and quiet.
"Luna. It's okay." How is he so calm about this? My emotions are beginning to take over. I'm becoming noticeably scared of how calm he is. "I won't hurt you."
"Hurt me?" He keeps trying to come closer. "LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yell before running into the woods. I can't believe the moment. At this point, the overall shock is going to kill me. Why did Solana have to play hero? It is so annoying! Like, don't save me, I don't want to be saved. You need to go on without me. I can't believe this.
I find myself deep in the woods, lost and alone. I wander around, looking up at the trees. I hate how uncertain navigating this storm is. I found peace in the eye of the storm, just to face the dangerous winds all over again. Ugh, why did life have to get so complicated?
I lay in the dirt looking at the stars. I see a new constellation that looks like a candle. Did Artemis do that? I've memorized every constellation possible to see in this area and I've never seen it. Either way, it's my symbol of Solana. I name it Solntse. It sounds pretty and the meaning reminds me too much of Solana for me not to. I really miss her. This won't ever disappear.
I shadowtravel to the cabin. Nico doesn't seem to be here, no doubt being with Will. I lay down when I feel something hard in my back. It's like this little glowing stub. Could I be hallucinating...? Eh, It'll probably be gone soon anyways. I turn on my music. Christmas kids by Roar begins to play, and I find some refuge in the sounds of the song. I lay down and close my eyes, at this point just giving up. I never notice, but I drift off into a dreamless sleep.
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I wake up sometime around 12:00 PM. Wow, I slept late. I get out of bed, trying to forget about Solana. I feel mentally exhausted, but I haven't eaten anything in days. I can't let myself die due to hunger after everything that's happened. I walk to the mess hall, noticing Nico and Will happily munching on McDonalds. Yum. I guess it would help to eat a happy meal even if I'm not happy. Who knows, maybe it will lift my spirits. It's worth a try.
I grab one of the cheeseburger happy meals and sit down. I'm guessing that Nico went and bought these because there's only three. As I bite into one of the french fries, I remember the days that I was on the S.S Moonwalker. Man, I miss the easy days. Now there's huge burdens on my shoulders that will probably never be removed.
I won't ever be able to forgive myself for what happened to Solana. I can't let myself get close to another person. People have a habit of dying whenever they get close to me. First my mom, now Solana. Who's next. Nico? I can't let myself trust anyone with my heart. It's already been shattered to tiny pieces twice, I don't need it to be like that again. Friendships are hard to maintain, anyways. It's not like I need one, right? I'll just go without these idiots. It's easy to keep from letting people try to accept me, not to mention having them try to be friends with me. If I don't have friends it's easier for everyone.10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2bYgn55qQ
I miss the days where I would spend hours drawing manga while watching Sweetness and Lightning on this TV above my desk. Those days were so fun and carefree. Nobody worried about me being locked up in my room for hours. Nobody worried when I would go days without eating. Mom would rarely notice. Those were the days where I had severe depression, but it felt good. I didn't have to care about happiness, facial expressions, and all that other stuff. It's really helpful to actually have some time where nobody cares about what you do. It makes you feel alive and free.
After I'm done eating, I throw away the trash and go to the archery range. Nobody's there, so this is the perfect time to practice. I love to shoot arrows, mainly because I'm pretty good at it. I used to do this with Solana. We would shoot flaming arrows and poison arrows at the target. We would even compete against each other sometimes.
Solana also taught me how to play guitar. I go to practice it because it's fun strumming my fingers along the strings, hearing the sounds it would make. I honestly think that guitar is a pretty cool instrument. I can play so many different songs on it. Each one had their own unique sound. Even though they were different, every piece was beautiful in it's own way. Sort of like how we describe each other. It's cool to think about.
All of these things help to take my mind off of Solana, while still making connecting me to her in a way. Each activity is special, but they all serve cool purposes. I decide to head back to bed. I'm mentally and physically exhausted, and I'm surprised that I made it this far without collapsing on the ground.
I begin to think about the dreams I had. I hated the battle with Ahklys. She was a real pain in the ass, and I hope she knows that. Maybe that will shut her stupid piehole. She really needs to shut it before I personally go down into Tartarus and nail a piece of metal onto her godly mouth. That'll teach her not to mess with me, even in my dream state. I feel like the dream state is the worst place to be messed with. I decide to finally let my mind rest as I fall asleep again, the void of my sleep swallowing me whole.
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I wake up to Nico shaking me violently. Out of habit, I slap him in the face. Defense mechanism? What can I say, don't wake me up. It's most likely the only sleep I will get all week..
"What do you fucking want?" I ask him, still half-asleep.
"Are you okay?" He asks a look of concern on his face. I'm still determining if it was real or fake, and is Will sent him or not. I'm going to go with he probably has real concerns for me, but Will sent him. He wouldn't be going up to anyone because he thinks they're not doing so hot except Will. We all know you Nico, you don't have to pretend.
"I'm fine, just leave me alone." I roll over to the side of the bunk bed. There's no ladder on this side, and Nico is short, so he shouldn't be able to wake me again unless he climbs onto the bed. I blast my music, falling asleep to the rhythmic patterns of drumbeats and guitar strokes. 10Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJa6HoG0Qoz
I guess the is the beginning of the end. The end of my life life. The end of my happiness. The end of everything. This isn't the absolute end, though. I'm still here, thanks to Solana.
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Interpret it how you want to.
Because we'll be back soon.
Goodbye and goodnight.
and remember,
BITE ME
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