The morning was a bitch .
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With its sparkling rays and flashing lights pouring through the sheer curtains of my room .
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Not to mention, the annoying entourage it came with . The birds chirping disorderly, as if in a badly directed orchestra , their horrid sounds resounding in my ears .
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Yet, some people find it "peaceful".
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I'm starting to think those are early symptoms of being deaf .
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" Tom! Come eat breakfast son!" My father proceeds to shout from downstairs. As if the walls of this house weren't made of paper .
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I'd only just woken up , now I had my father pressuring me to get ready to eat with him . Honestly, he had no reason to put my name and "son" in the same sentence. He just does it to rub it in our neighbours faces that they're sons six feet deep , whilst he's six feet above .
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Its a cruel joke he says every day, but I wouldn't put it past him . Being cruel is his whole personality. His pride and ego sticking like second skin . Closer than his own family.
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He says "A man can lose his family but his pride....that sticks with you closer than blood son."
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I laughed at the irony of that sentence. It was probably intentional as he chuckled too that day . My dad whilst being born with a brute of a personality had the manners of a nobleman , from his outward appearance to his voice .
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Either way it was not a nice way to start an already bad day .
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Getting off my bed , I quickly bathe and spray on some cheap deodorant my father bought from a nearby dollar store . Honestly, it doesn't smell that bad .
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Is it out of this world strong ?
Yes .
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Does it get the scent of cigarettes of my body ?
Yes
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So it gets the job done ?
As intended.
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" Chop . Chop . Sonny boy! "
He bellows from downstairs.
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" Coming! " I scream back . I definitely should not be screaming this early into the morning . But , maaaaaan does my father get me mad !
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Gosh . Sometimes having a dad who really needs you in his orbit in the morning is stressful. Like he always wants to bond at the most randomest or inconvenient times .
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Such as breakfast. Where he probably made my mother cook then shoved her back into their room .
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Apparently, she's too much of a "barbaric" person to sit at my father's Grand bust-up table . Which I'm pretty sure we stole from a garage sale that was to raise funds for someone's dead son's funeral.
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I'm sure you know who .
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Grabbing my hoodie , I quickly descend the stairs and to my amazement , sitting at the table is my ......Uncle John and Mom.
She must've somehow serenaded him into allowing her at the table .
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" Hey mom, I hope you woke up okay."
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I say shyly only to later freeze as my father sends a glare my way .
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That's when my idiot of an Uncle decided to crack a smirk , probably at the show to come .
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See, in my house we had a rule . Failure to follow this rule was the same as committing an act of treason to my father , which usually ends up with someone down . I'm to greet my father before his spouse , whom is my mother . Whether I greet Uncle John or my mother first isn't his issue but I know not to greet my mother before uncle John .
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He made it VERY clear when I was younger .
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" I see having your mother here was a bad idea ." He says calmly , smiling whilst he talks to me .
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And suddenly, I feel so small . As if I've gone back to the little boy who feared his father with every bone in his small body .
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" N-n-no! It's - I'm sorry , I just forgot ." I say trying to appease his anger .
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Uncle John's smirk widens at my stutter . His little snickers small compared to the gaze my father has set on me .
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I would've said somethingback but not whilst his still looking at me .
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" You don't do forgetting. It was a simple rule my dear . If you never did it then , Why do it now ."
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There he went . Putting words in my mouth , and making me bend to his will . Imposing his lies on me .
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I was just happy to see my Mom , dammit .
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" Mary ."
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" Yes , Jay ." My mother says in a sickening sweet voice .
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" Go to your room . Now! " He says angrily. Making it clear he doesn't have time to play into her shenanigans nor in the mood to play her losing games .
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She doesn't glance my way . Just calmly gets up like a dismissed servant at her master's call.
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She passes me a heated glare on the way .
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I sit down.
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The guilt inside me festering like a badly infected wound , eating at my heart .
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I wanna follow her and apologize for causing her to go . It wasn't intentional. If just gotten happy at the prospect of speaking to her before going to school .
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My shoulders hunch and my fingers twist upon my thigh . My plate left untouched .
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" Well. Eat up ! " , " your a growing boy , plus I'm dropping you off at school today ." Which translates to we'll have a talk on the way to school .
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" I'll talk to your mother about her behaviour after I drop you."
He says resuming to eat as if he just didn't do anything wrong .
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" A rowdy one I tell you Jay ! Mom always did disapprove of you putting a ring on that wild cat ! " My uncle chuckles .
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" She's my wife , John . And your sister-in-law.....play nice ." He said after a moment's worth of consideration.
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He says faking seriousness , but I can see the smile in his eyes at his words.
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Maybe it's the reason my Uncle never bothers to put a filter on his big mouth , because my dad could care less .
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He looks at me and smiles .
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My heart sinks .
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I know that smile . He was riled up and ready to play bad mitten with my mother . He's playing partner right across me .
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They would wait for me to leave .
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It was my fault. He knew but the difference was -
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I was his dear boy .
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