The director confessed he'd never filmed a BL before. What followed was a five-hour-long workshop of shame——just to figure out the sex scene angles.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1pRxDN4Ax
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The audition for Guiltbound went surprisingly well.
Though Jiang Zhilin and Shen Yanxing were both actors “recommended” by the clients, there was nothing second-rate about their performance.
Their timing, emotional shifts, even that elusive, barely-there tension—it all felt rehearsed to perfection,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4GmGvQwBn
and yet, absurdly natural.
The director initially thought it was a fluke.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvDiCATzqa
That is, until he asked:
“Have you two worked together before?”
The two men exchanged a glance.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcfIlKt2DC
It was like someone had poked a mutual wavelength.
Then they nodded.
“We’ve known each other since we were kids. Our families are close——childhood friends, basically.”
At that moment, the art lead snapped her notebook shut with a smack.
“I knew it!” she roared, like a prophecy had just come true.
“I told you! That whole ‘look and instantly understand’ thing?231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzUcx3V4lr
“That’s not acting. That’s telepathy!”
That day, the crew walked out of the audition on a total high.
For a brief moment, they thought the worst was behind them——231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7PDdSmR4R
the grueling prep, the mental breakdowns, the nightmare of pulling a shoot structure together in a single day.
But one day passed.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGsDfMIl57
And the go-ahead never came.
No call sheet.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJJj917G9R
No camera directions.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbb3gV82T3
No sign of a start.
Which is how this meeting came to be.
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Everyone was gathered around the conference table.
The director had his head bowed so low, he was practically face-down against the surface.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIhKsweOYn
Hands on his lap. Completely still.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡps49Xy4SJu
Deep in thought.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7Hh6cxLK3
And unmistakably, quietly, giving up.
The screenwriter cracked first. His voice was low, but clearly irritated.
"Sure, the client said we had full control——but that doesn’t mean we can afford to waste time." “What’s the holdup? Why haven’t we started?”
The art lead sipped her coffee through a straw, her tone laced with resentment.
“I’ve mentally played out this scene a million times——231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yslYgTnPx
and we still haven’t shot a thing!”
The manager added, calm but resigned:
“The boss has been blowing up Instagram Stories every single day. I think he’s on the verge of exploding.”
Still, the director didn’t look up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5VxE3lZhl
But his shoulders twitched.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5eSmVUX1d
Like he was wavering. Or suppressing something.
Five seconds passed in silence.
Then, finally, he exhaled.
“I’ve never——” His voice was too soft. Barely a breeze.
“What?” The screenwriter frowned.
"Louder, please. We’re not the client!" the art lead said, deadpan.
The director finally looked up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqS3tP68OC
Face flushed like he’d just run an 800-meter.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfGgKFo0DK
Sweat on his brow. Eyes full of hesitation.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPWYu6x8bH
Then suddenly—like he couldn’t hold it in anymore:
“I said——I’ve never filmed a BL before!!”
The air froze.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KEdwJr5S6
Time slowed to a crawl.
And then——
“Aaaaaugh!!!”
The director let out a cry of despair and slammed both hands over his face, words spilling out like a busted fire hydrant:
“I did so much research!”
“There are so many types of lube!231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbS6hjfKYl
Saliva, Vaseline, body wash, actual lube—I couldn’t even pick one!”
“And the prep! The cleaning! The stretching!231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG571MRAHFg
The angles! The visuals! The audience expectations!!”
“I even downloaded entire SFX packs just to figure out if I should record the moaning live!!”
“And now what? I feel like I’ve been mentally corrupted,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseGmJj6eOE
and I still don’t know how to shoot the damn scene!!”
He collapsed back onto the table, face fully pressed to the surface like he wanted to merge with it.
All that remained in the room was the ticking of the wall clock.
“So that’s what this is about…”
The screenwriter cleared her throat gently.
“To be fair, I didn’t write that part out in detail.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSbmCOThu0
I kind of skipped over all the props…”
“There’s a big difference between writing it down and actually filming it,” the art lead muttered.
The manager nodded, voice calm and measured:
“What the audience wants isn’t just a sexy shot.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN59k7DPyD
It’s tension that feels real—something that makes the scene convincing.”
“Right now, the problem isn’t that you can’t shoot it.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1xwds3hQf
It’s that you don’t know how to make it both believable and beautiful.”
The director nodded again.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSy2W3z7HLx
Still didn’t lift his head.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGM3vke9T6C
But everyone understood.
This wasn’t some unspeakable shame.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE58EgR2cOc
Just an honest admission from a creator231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHYOB77kr4
facing a story he didn’t yet know how to handle.
And so began what would become231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaT0YlV7O9B
the most awkward—and most sincere—creative meeting in the history of the crew.
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They split up the research.
Analyzing what kinds of scenes wouldn’t overwhelm the actors,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0LzWsq14t
what kind of movements could hold emotion without slipping into something pornographic.
Even the lighting——231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA8lTm6DLy
which angle to shoot from,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFwxQWuYzF
to avoid making it all look like a cheap adult film.
The manager laid out a timeline.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJfFMrsS4u
The art lead sketched out framing options.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcPlGdDZv5
The screenwriter rewrote parts of the scene flow.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHdRohWfMr
The director took so many notes he went through three pen refills.
The meeting lasted five full hours.
When they finally walked out of the room——
The director looked pale, like he’d just crawled back from a war zone.
The manager’s expression was grim, like he’d just left a military briefing.
The screenwriter shook his head, dazed.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxtjC6myzD
“Why the hell are there so many names for these positions…?”
Only the art lead was positively glowing.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFytW6CJCdX
Eyes bright, cheeks flushed—she looked downright radiant.
“This was a journey of self-discovery.” She let out a gentle sigh.
The others all quietly avoided her gaze.
The screenwriter made a mental note:
“Your face really does reflect your soul.” Turns out it’s true.
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and then Add to home screen.