好幾年時間入面,我都好糾結一個問題。1101Please respect copyright.PENANABnyRTYO1ew
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係我嘅不安懷疑令芯玥走,定係佢同個男仔一早曖昧緊先會令我懷疑?1101Please respect copyright.PENANAD9zghpzShR
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分手未夠兩個星期,就有條新仔,仲要一早就無取消張機票,兩個星期入面就一齊再去旅行?1101Please respect copyright.PENANAQsISueIx6Z
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點解一開始要呃我取消咗?1101Please respect copyright.PENANA5QC4YHaw96
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可能因為唔想被人罰錢,所以留住張機票先,但就算佢嚟都唔會被我知,直至話取消咗等我死一條心。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAoT6hTUAY57
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點知分手之後好快搵到另一個,咪轉做同新嗰個去囉。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAa64TQ30lXN
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定係由同我分手嗰陣已經計劃好同條新仔去旅行,所以無取消張機票呢?1101Please respect copyright.PENANAaXiGdpBQMX
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好多我無辦法確定嘅答案,令我每日個腦都七國咁亂。1101Please respect copyright.PENANATClPEpnAuY
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唯一可以肯定嘅只有一樣嘢,就係喺機票依個問題上,芯玥呃咗我。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAj9wsLl8hre
嗰陣喺台灣自己一個,日喊夜喊,搞到喉嚨勁痛。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAOfI8EQ1eAA
人生路不熟又唔去睇醫生,淨係求其買啲喉糖食,舒服少少又喊過。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAuKkzYE3Cyr
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當時棟宿舍多咗個鬧鬼傳聞,話夜晚走廊盡頭會聽到男人喊聲,其實就係我嚟。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAA8OYi0xMGY
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喊吓喊吓發覺把聲沙咗,都無乜為意,聲沙好小事、喉嚨痛好小事以為自己會好,點知就無再好過。1101Please respect copyright.PENANA6XyXKln8qT
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嗰次分手,驚動阿爸阿媽打電話過嚟,阿媽同其他朋友各自又喺聖誕節過嚟搵我。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAI9npVd8Ucq
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我去食煙,聽講可以排解寂寞。但呼出嘅只有空虛。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAhE2gPUrosV
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我去飲酒,酒入愁腸愁更愁。我以為食酒止到喊,點知之後好幾年都係飲醉就諗起芯玥再喊過。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAN65kIIQhyY
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我去隊草,但佢只係放大晒我嘅傷心,喉嚨被火燒嘅感覺更強,見到任何男女都變成芯玥同條新仔,一邊恥笑我一邊愈走愈遠。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAT90X1R7dbl
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後來每個朋友都話,嗰幾年我個樣好似隨時會死咁。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAkHXFHSyAzp
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但唯獨自殺我無做到,可能因為分手嗰日我就搵晒所有朋友同親人大肆宣揚,諗返起都覺得醜,不過每個人都安慰我。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAl4G2sqldQB
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雖然安慰係無補於事,但我都慶幸大家會安慰我。1101Please respect copyright.PENANARke0p8KR9R
同芯玥一齊嗰陣我已經講晒畀朋友聽,分手嗰陣都講晒,之後再無一個女朋友係我會主動同班朋友提起。1101Please respect copyright.PENANABrdt830JMr
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蠔哥話:「留有用之軀,無謂送頭吖。你死咗佢會唔會在意先?唔會吖嘛,咁你死嚟做乜先?」1101Please respect copyright.PENANA5DH8MBF7jx
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或者係逃避痛苦。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAo4sPIqi6cl
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雞腎話:「痛苦總有一日會過,到時你就會慶幸自己當初無死到,原來個世界仲係咁靚。」1101Please respect copyright.PENANAr0nwNJqmNY
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蘿蔔話:「計我話,快啲搵個第二個啦。」1101Please respect copyright.PENANAvfI1O1vWaX
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結果我頹廢咗好耐,每日都想死但又要控制自己,先發明咗「由瞓醒開始將所有嘢諗到最壞」嘅方法幫自己留意日常微細嘅美好。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAywfrYvIIDj
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所以你問我有無自殺?我係每日都想死持續咗一年半,但事實上又的確係咩都無做過。1101Please respect copyright.PENANAGninJjotLD


