✧PIPPI RADIO/日更歌單大挑戰! - 【Day 2】Life of The Party

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Life of The Party by Kanye West ft. Andre 3000

第二日也是一首肯爺的歌曲，收錄於第十張專輯「Donda (Deluxe)」裏的一首歌。

比較Good Morning 那種充滿能量，pop-rap 風格，這首歌曲比較滄涼和令人內心安寧，就是可以讓你在深夜散步聽著，思考人生的作品。而兩名創作者也在自己的歌詞裏表達自己內裏的的軟弱和疚意，非常符合這個專輯的主題。

雖然是這是肯爺的歌曲，不過我認為這首歌曲的主角卻是客串饒舌家「Andre 3000」(安德烈3000) 。

要了解安德烈的歌詞，我們要先了解肯爺製作Donda 的意義，這是肯爺為了紀念離世的母親 Donda West 而設的專輯，同樣失去母親的安德烈也是以這個背景寫了以下的歌詞。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYDmNwbemx
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Hey, Miss Donda
You run into my mama, please tell her I said, "Say something"
I'm startin' to believe ain't no such thing as Heaven's trumpets
No after-over, this is it, done
If there's a Heaven, you would think they'd let ya speak to your son
Maybe she has in the form of a baby's laugh
I heard passing by in a stroller remindin' me, "Hey, keep rolling"
I don't know, maybe she has with a prick of a blade of grass
I've been layin' on way too long, got me itchy
Got up and roamed a lil' more

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安德烈不斷以 Hey, Miss Donda 的詢問句作開頭，借肯爺的母親作為安德烈和其母親的媒介。在第一段裏，他在歌詞裏提及了對天堂真實性的疑問，還有不斷對母親是否仍然陪伴著自己作出疑問。在天堂的她是否會透過快樂的事物 (嬰兒的笑聲)，或者一些擾人的小事 (有點鋒利的小草)鼓勵自己呢？這裏充滿各種他對靈界的疑問，也間接表達了他對母親的掛念。

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Miss Donda, you see my mama, tell her I'm lost
You see, she'd always light a cigarette, we talk, I would cough
Exaggeratin' a lil' bit so she get the point
Tryna get her to stop smokin', I would leave and fire up a *****
'Til I quit, started back up again, twenty years later
All that time, y'all thought a ***** was high, thought I was crazy
My mom, she ain't cut no corners
Got me back on track, I don't miss her overstepping
But do miss her showin' Seven civilian life ****
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Ah, Miss Donda, you see my mama, whisper her this:
The real reason I was geeked to go to church
Must confess, when y'all grown-ups would be in Bible study
That girl helping me with my homework? Her and I were ****
So pure and ****, so spirit spinning and dirty
So on, so on, and so on, we hoped that no one heard us
Sh-sh, ah, ah
And to this day, I think her mama knew but let us explore

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這段是訴說安德烈對母親的愐懷之情和自己沒有對她說的秘密。第一段安德烈對目前的情況的迷惘，而第二段的他正在愐懷母親對自己的幫助。安德烈因為母親的吸煙問題而感到難受，又因此而染上煙草癮。不過在母親的介入後，他成功地脫癮。這段充滿矛盾的互動也交代了安德烈跟母親的關係。她是一個會作出越界行為的母親，不過安德烈心裏知道她也有所愛之處：幫了他，也幫助了他的兒子。

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第三段是他希望Donda 可以跟他傳遞他沒有對母親說的秘密以及她的歉意。安德烈生於一個保守派的基督教家庭，因此也是一個會去教會的人。不過安德烈自責年輕時去教會只是為了跟一個女孩做愛。也許是因為母親的作風，安德烈才不敢在她在生前時跟她坦白，不過同時也可以看到安德烈對母親的信任。

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Miss Donda, you see my father, please, ask him why he never married
Always smiled, but was he happy inside?
Because I carried my mother's name, did he carry shame with him?
I'm sure she did it out of spite, 'twas her decision at birth
Shit, she probably was hurt, ah, poor baby
Two young people with different views, a lot for a young lady
No coincidence, they both passed away from heart conditions
There's a dissidence at play, dad and mom do hard division
Three Thou', poster child for big **** **** raised by their mothers
I'm supposed to smile as if God knew that I would be troubled
Keeps me around, for what? I don't know
But I do know that it's crucial, that we do so, pronto
I don't know how much long though

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第四段裏，安德烈回到自己的原生家庭裏。處於單親家庭的他想知道他父親的真實一面，儘管父親常掛笑容，但是對兒子跟著母姓一事會否感到不快樂呢？一開始想把自己墜掉的父親到底是否愛自己呢？82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPD8Dx8UNkR

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安德烈最後指出了Donda 和自己母親共享的痛苦，兩位母親都是因為心臟問題而離世，不過回想她們都要經歷那麼多痛苦，因為心臟問題死一事也好像有點理當所然了。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWColgQDOxV

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安德烈最後質問神，儘管他認同神的存在，但為何神要他繼續存活，繼續吃苦？安德烈不知道，心態疲累的他最終也向神發出一道無聲的呼喊求助，希望衪可以用神蹟認證他一直以來的信仰。

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這段是我認為我聽過其中一段最動人的歌詞。也許是經歷相近的原因，令我滿有感受。安德烈完美地演繹了一個信徒的信仰危機和對已故親人的懷念之情。他跟神和跟母親的關係一樣充滿矛盾和疑問，現在的他相信神，但是世界並沒有他有多麼友善，就像他以前跟母親一樣。不過安德烈仍然淺淺地相信只要他一直相信下去，也許會有好結局。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBD6tXizM0

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雖然肯爺的部份沒有太令我感動，不過歌曲結尾採用了一段神來之筆的取樣：饒舌家 DMX 和女兒在遊樂園的時光。DMX 不是一個好的父親，在片段裏，他的對女兒害怕的回應也比較粗俗，但其用意也只是想鼓勵女兒不要害怕。當我把這個片段跟安德烈的部份連在一起時，我看到一個充滿淒慘美的畫面。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHnPHCNfBm

兒女對不完美父母的愛恨情仇，在此刻顯露無遺。

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